17.9.06
I remember back in primary school (okay maybe i should not say "back in primary school" it makes me sound very old). Fine correction: 2 or 3 years ago when I was still in primary school, I used to pride myself in being someone who knew exactly where her life was heading. I admit this may not sound like much, because well, in primary school wasn't everyone just so sure that they would become doctors when they grow up? But then, ignorant (I will avoid using the word stupid!) as I was last time, I remember I scorned at others for being so stereotyped in thinking.
I certainly wasn't the kind who would go "wow you want to be a doctor? me too!" when someone proudly announces that her dream is to become a doctor. Anyway, back to the point. When I was younger, I knew exactly what I wanted and I knew exactly where I was heading. But somehow along the way in secondary school, my "I-know-exactly-what-I-want" attitude has gradually faded away. It's not because I'm deprived of opportunities, on the contrary, it's because I have the freedom and maybe just too many opportunities that I really don't know where to head. I know they say it's normal but I feel that by not knowing exactly what to do, I'm just wasting everything away. It's not that I've lost my directions, I just don't know where to take that next crucial step to.

Oh well, so much for finally being in a blogging mood. I need to go and sleep now. Okay it's not that I'm really forced to go to sleep now, I'm just sleeping now because I think I need to do so.
Sunday, September 17, 2006

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